Black shadow of my heart.

I just can't think WHY.

WHY i am upset ?

i am so confuse.

i know a lot of things are fix and constant.

i know we can't change others but we only can change ourself!

just finish talk to mom in phone.

the 1st thing i did when i wake up is call mom, she was in the office.

we talk for 20 mins.

and i cried.

I told her what my heart thought all that.

I know she is a middle people if i ask her to help me.

BTW, she will always help me. try to help me.

i know she is always between me and dad.

i just cant be happy with my dad.

i know he is my dad.

i love him but sometime is just a big distance between we both.

and his mind never change.

I have no idea.

as people said:" what to do?'' 

hais.

Thanks for my mom being so optimism and open minded.

I know you understanding me and you are a good mom.

thanks for trusting me .

I love you, mami ♥

i wish all the problem will end and won't affect others.